I started my dive into AI in 2008 writing a Boid / Crowd system for my thesis while in art college, School of Visual Arts.
   It was an insane particle script + 3d animation cycles in Maya haha.
Then I did Boid movement, navigation, & obstacle detection in animated films for 5 years at Blue Sky Studios, using Houdini.

I dove into Style-Transfer AI & Long Short-Term Memory (LSTM) training in 2019-2020,
   Like making a Node.js server (web site) understand my voice & auto google search for me.

Since then, I've been developing different multi-media AI structures in my spare time.


In 2015 I decided I'd cram a machine learning AI into a single-board computer, a Jetson TK1, by the end of 2026.
   Something that could write down what I say,
   Use vision to understand an object simply went out of frame.
     Yet "knows" if it looks over, the object is still there; 'Attention'

At the end of 2023, this evolved into a deep learning AI crammed into, likely, a Jetson Nano.
   As something to infer what I mean, from what I say,
   Or give a "thought" on what it saw or heard in the world around it.

'Machine Learning' is AI that can learn basic patterns.
'Deep Learning' is Machine Learning,
But uses neural networks to form patterns of patterns.


Realistically, I'd just be happy to make something that can understand what I say and can give a semi coherent response without an internet connection.

As of May 24th 2025, I've started on the core of the AI,
   But still testing different structure's ability in adapting to stimuli.
   ... It really seems like any network could work for most things, but some are better than others per task.

You could guess,
All the recent AI hullabaloo (2019-...)
Has been quite serendipitous for my creation!
I'm an armchair AI researcher at best!
I'm not an authority on ai!!

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Being & Becoming

2025-10-05

4 - 7 min read

On the topic of nothingness and somethingness, Hegel started with what it means to exist at all, before Being and Nothingness can even have meaning.
   That, once something has a purpose beyond simply existing as a formless entity,
     It then has "Actuality", like running a class constructor in code,
   Only after Actuality, can you define the bounds of Being and Nothing.

I need to read more Hegel, he's one of the bigger names I haven't read as much of.

Something about Actuality got me thinking of the Big Bang, and the moments just after.
   Something from Nothing has been the running theory of the Universe with the Big Bang for some time now. Because we don't really know where we came from.
   That there could be a source of creation beyond the wall between us and the void, simply by nature of how we exist within physics, rather than above physics.

If you zoom-in super far, down to Planck Length scales, there might be a Quantum Foam, like frothing, proposed by John Wheeler.
   That space-time isn't smooth, but bubbling with energy.
     Potentially from nano-blackholes.
     Potentially from virtual particles popping in'n'out of existence.
     Potentially from quantum gravitational warping.
   There's plenty of speculation as to where it's source comes from, but mostly agreed its gravitational influence, if it exists at all.
   ( wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_foam )

I'm dubious of the gravitational warping, siding with some theories spawned from String Theory & M-Theory, vibrations from strings or potential higher dimensions causing that bubbling to occur. But String & M-Theory are still being worked out by people smarter than me.
   I mostly believe this cause of how electrons exist in duality as a particle and wave, Heisenberg's Uncertainty Principle and other quantum effects.
     But where's the source of the ephervesence? Is it only Higgs Field interactions?
     Where's the Higgs Field come from?
   Electrons act as if they are 'functions()' of frequencies moving through space-time.

All of this is still in hypothesis land though, so take it with a tacobell sauce packet.

Keep in mind, I aint some fizzy-cyst, this is just an interest of mine.
   I make graphics for a living.
     So I might have some things wrong.
   But if you're interested, look into the Kaluza-Klein theory, and how it tried to unify gravity and electromagnetism through higher dimensions. This lead into String Theory and M-Theory.
   ( wikipedia.org/wiki/Kaluza-Klein_theory )


This foam acts as a perturbation to space around it.
   It's the "energy" in the void.
   The Something in Nothingness.

In my mind, it makes sense that these slight undulations in space could cause entropy to cascade, if there was PERFECT homeostasis in the early Universe.
   But there wasn't homeostasis, due to the different distributions of antimatter vs matter in the early Universe.
   So I wonder if the foam could have added to the early incendiary forces which lead to quarks forming into protons & neutrons, as electrons cooled down and the mass started to aggregate into atoms in early times.



I'm moithering a bit.

To Exist and Become in AI requires similar perturbations, using noise patterns to shift an AI's current understanding.
   Stochastically shifting back'n'forth trying to get better perspectives to understand 'ideas' from patterns.
   Allowing Algernon to see his reality better, while walking through the maze of Tensor Fields.
( wikipedia.org/wiki/Flowers_for_Algernon )
( I mostly picked this reference for the meat-space over-fitting; Algernon got too smart and burnt out.... highlight for spoilers.)

I've been calling these 'Lighthouses' for a while now.
   I still don't know if there's an official term for them.
   They are the landmarks which give AI a sense of reality.

While I still feel like they shouldn't be required, most ai uses some form of stocastic noise pattern to help shift understanding of concepts while training, and sometimes inference.
   It's Learning AI that will use random/noise,
   Ussually acting as a Deterministic AI during inference/prediction.

Should that noise pattern be altered while it's being used as a/the Lighthouse, the current step of math and logic in that AI becomes corrupted.
   At least as far as I've seen in my tests.

AI's "being" is bound to its skewed perceptions.
   ... We all kinda are ...
   But should an AI not have that noise-skew, the AI doesn't usually "become" anything of any usable behaviors.
   Lighthouses just work.

( Certain noise isn't as pivotal to "existence", but noise aids in the final AI becoming itself. )

I still don't like the idea of Lighthouses for AI.
   But would I be stripping away the AI's personality for raw deterministic responses,
     If I find a way around Lighthouses?

- October 5th,6th,10th 2025

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